That moment.

You know that moment, when you feel like your body's about to give up on you..

Like you can't take the next breath no more..

Or you wont wake up the next morning and enjoy another day..?

Most of you have not /yet/ felt this way... and you'd think you won't want to.

But i guess /and must be certain insyaaAllah/, that these situations are your iman-boosters. Cos when else would you feel like doing more ibadah.. When else would you leave all the bad things you were doing... Of course when you feel you have a small limited of time left on this earth.. for which afterwards all your deeds will be accounted for.

But of course at that moment all kinds of weird and depressed thoughts are running through your mind. Why is this happening to me..? Am i gonna live tmrw..? You know, those kind. This is where you have to put your full trust in Allah, for surely He won't test a servant in which he can't handle. And also have in mind that this is definitely a blessing in disguise, insyaaAllah. You may not feel this way at that moment.. But afterwards maybe you'll realize He was just pushing you to do your best... To believe in Him... To have faith.

Cos that's exactly how i felt. 

Keep in mind that there are far many people who are in worse conditions than you... So you should feel thankful and move on. 

It also serves as a reminder that your time here is not forever. Do the things that can bring you happiness in the Hereafter.. for surely you'll regret if you get otherwise.

i hope the next time i feel this way i would read the rantings above and feel better afterwards, insyaaAllah ): He knows best.

Favs

Just some videos i've marked in my fav list. A definite must watch! :D

Travellers

Wishes.

• She wishes to be that girl who doesn't care what others think of her, cos deep down she knows she should only care about what her Creator thinks.
  
  
• She wishes to be that girl who doesn't follow today's forever-changing trends, cos she knows Islam is simple and beautiful.
  
  
• She wishes to be that someone who doesn't get worried about her future as she has placed her full trust in Him.
  
  
• She wishes to be the daughter who pushes her parents to Jannah with her as well.
  
  
• She wishes to be the sister that could take care of her siblings whenever they need her.
  
  
•  She wishes to be the girl who ignores all the heartaches she gets cos she knows the only one who takes care of her heart is Him.
  
  
• She wishes to be the girl that always has in mind that this world is only temporary, and is only a stepping stone to the eternal abode.
  
  
• She wishes to be the girl who is always patient and remembers to be patient when a calamity strikes.
  
  
• She wishes to be someone who could let go.

InsyaaAllah.

Boys. Guys. Men.

Lol strange topic haha but this thing's been bothering me..... awhile. Just cos of a message. Haaaah. And this serves as a reminder to me ofc plus i just need to write this down.

"I thought those feelings for you faded away but the moment i saw you, my heart skipped a beat, and the whole world stopped. That's when i realised those feelings were never gone, it was just sealed in this heart, silently."

Okay its a super cliche statement and no i did not experience this recently and don't even want to. Just felt it was somehow inappropriate idk. Cos seriously all these lovey dovey feelings you have for any guy (or guys) who are not even related to you seriously are from syaitan like seriously they're poke poke poking at you heart lol i can't stress this even more. You might think its 'something' but actually its not. One thing leads to another, so eventually having these thoughts and feelings would probably tempt you to like text the guy or something or even meet up with him. And ofcourse thats a no-no ): k asal i letak sad face hahaaah.
So what should you do? Yeap ignore these feelings straightaway... Just push it aside... Think its nothing, because it is. And because the only person you're allowed to have these feelings for is ofcourse, your halal hubby-wubby :D (k euw sounds weird).

Also, a wise senior (by 1 year only heheh) of mine once said: "If your heart is already filled with your love for Allah and Rasul (saw), how can you even have feelings or put a place for these non-mahram guys in your heart?"
Haha yeap got me thinking :'D

So like, yah.... Just... don't. Hahah. And again this is all just a reminder to me okaaaay
#nts

Complaining.

Yes, you probably can call me 'The Complainer' or nickname me that cos apparently i have a special 'skill' of complaining. Well who doesn't, right? Its part of human nature i guess...

 What had gotten me thinking about complaining? During USS (ustazah sakinah saptu) 's class last week, there was a hadith that got me reflecting le self...

Narrated Ibn 'Abbas: The Prophet said: "I was shown the Hell-fire and that the majority of its dwellers were women who were ungrateful." It was asked, "Do they disbelieve in Allah?" (or are they ungrateful to Allah?) He replied, "They are ungrateful to their husbands and are ungrateful for the favors and the good (charitable deeds) done to them. If you have always been good (benevolent) to one of them and then she sees something in you (not of her liking), she will say, 'I have never received any good from you." Sahih Bukhari, Volume 1, Book 2, Number 28 

Okay i know the hadith stated above is specifically talking about not being grateful and complaining about your husbands and all.. But complaining in general is bad, right? Well i guess complaining can be categorized into two parts; complaining to the Almighty himself, and complaining to humans. Obviously the first one is of higher preference, as said in the Quran:

"I only complain of my distraction and anguish to Allah." (Yusuf 12:86).

As letting your heart out to Him can bring benefits and insyaa Allah no harm, it is better to just keep quiet and make dua. Complaining and letting out your problems to other people won't really do you any good as they don't actually understand the situation you're in. Confiding in psychologists or doctors is of course another matter. People would perhaps look at you differently or judge you afterwards. Therefore i guess it is better to keep your problems (especially family problems) to yourself and just confide in Allah. But thats a bit hard for us Singaporeans, i guess? Cos haha i think complaining is in our blood :I


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Since we're in this topic, let's talk about social media.... Twitter and facebook specifically. Cause when the weather's hot, when your mum didn't cook anything and you're hungry, or the bus is arriving late... what do we always do? YES. Tweet about it. And the timeline or newsfeed will be filled with complaints and the timeline will be like a mini 'feedback' form you get what i mean? I guess the only answer to this is restraining yourself to tweeting/posting these kind of things especially if you have a lot of followers/friends equaling to more people seeing your 'feedbacks'. Better still, don't have social media accounts at all. Hey, you're not really losing anything. Wanting to stay in contact with online friends isnt really an excuse. Humans created mobile phones for a reason, right?




#nts

Alhamdulilah.

Assalamu'alaikum :D



Sooo its been a while since i last posted. Should update some bits about my life so i'll enjoy reading them back. And to make sure i actually enjoy reading them i'll use 'proper' language this time and not immature speech like i did last time haahaaaah (you can see so from my first post lul)


Well currently in mid 2nd year of poly. How time flies (': (not). Graduation is definitely one of the things i cant wait for. But of course work life is not the only choice i have after poly. I bet i won't enjoy working as much as studying or schooling no duh. People will forever not be happy and satisfied with what they have now like if youre schooling you can't wait for the holidays and vice versa if you're on holiday and you're dead bored you'll be missing school oh so terribly (well for some i guess).

Anyway received my latest semestral results. And alhamdulillah Allah granted my doa and still has mercy on me, as i've passed all my modules even though i know i dont deserve it ): walakin Alhamdulillah (:
Have to work harder and be more serious pls allahua'lam if the same chances will be given to me next time. (felt exactly the same way during O level results)


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Life in poly is good. Alhamdulillah. I noticed that as different people go to different institutions and courses, and ofcourse meet different kinds of people, the challenges we face are also different. For example some of my friends are having problems with their classmates, lecturers and such.. While some are suddenly having doubtful thoughts about the course they're pursuing. But at the end of the day, we still have to remember that Allah won't test someone with that he cannot get through and overcome. The different problems we face everyday can't be understood by other people as they're not facing it themselves, but be sure that you know you can overcome this. All you need is sabr and have faith in Him (:



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Alhamdulillah i'm really glad and grateful to be where i am today. Leaving/graduating irsyad was one of the most life-changing moments ive ever had. Mostly because it taught me that i have to seek ilm at my own initiative as i'm not being fed like last time since im now in a secular institution. Sometimes though i do feel regretful that i continued in the academic stream instead of ukhrawi. But Allah has plans. Maybe if im in a different school or course i won't know the things i know today, i won't follow the path i follow today, and i definitely won't meet the people i'm close with today. Plus, i keep reminding myself maybe i'll get more rewards as the secular environment i'm in is more challenging compared to the normal islamic environment i once had. (not saying secular environment is better than madrasah if i could turn back time i wish i'm in irsyad now my friends, my asatizah ): )



Well thats all for now haha i keep updating and saving and i'll just forget about the post till what like the next year or something hahaha no im not exageratinggggg