I can't really imagine getting attached to someone who's not upon the same understanding or manhaj as me. It's like having to choose between pizza and ice cream. OK NO. Bad example. Haha. I guess i'll just have to give that person up cos honestly, i am more in love with this manhaj than i will ever be with a person. I think. :/

Don't worry dear self. Allah will give you someone better insyaaAllah (=

"Subhanallah, a young brother had an accident and became blind, may Allah grant him patience. He was asked how he was going to cope with his blindness, and he gave us some of the best advice I heard in my life, which I didn't expect:

"Before becoming blind, when I used to play a videogame and then it becomes boring, I would simply increase the level of difficulty to hard and it becomes fun again. That's how I see it. Allah has increased the difficulty of my life from easy to hard, and I accept that challenge and find joy in it! So my advice to everyone, blind or not, if you feel your life is boring, chances that you are not challenging yourself enough. Increase your life level and worship level to a higher level, and enjoy the challenge, and remember, a harder game comes with higher scores and reward, so Allah will reward you accordingly!" 

Honestly, tell me how many people you know have that strong Eman in Allah in that way when a catastrophe strikes them! And I like how he described it in his own youthful way with the game analogy. May Allah reward him and help us step up to our life challenges. Truly, some people are blind but Allah gave them the light of wisdom, and some people have eyes but they chose the blindness of the heart. Now go challenge yourself! "

- https://m.facebook.com/ImamWaleed/photos/a.448098695842.243096.108448120842/10152440693365843/?type=1&ref=bookmark

Teaching, has its pros and cons i guess.

Teaching part time in local mosques has taught me a few things. Literally. The things I've forgotten or had never even knew came out in a syllabus that eventually i had to teach and its like both the kids and i are learning, you know. So i'm thankful for that.

But then, there'll be a point of time where you have to teach them something you already know, but you yourself are not applying it (yet).
"O you who believe! Why do you say that which you do not do? Most hateful it is with Allah that you say that which you do not do"
[As-Saff 61:2-3]

Guilty as charged here. D:
Sometimes i feel like just skipping the certain topic just because of this reason. But then you won't be actually doing what you're supposed to do as a teacher in relaying that information to them, right? Guess i just have to work harder in actually doing the things i'm teaching other people to do.

Is it 'healthy' to be holding on to something that's not even yours?